If I received the power to read someone's mind. It would Be Evan... My boyfriend. He doesn't really express how he feels or what's on his mind which bugs me sometimes. He could be saying one thing and thinking another, so sometimes I wonder what's really going on up there.
He lives all the way up in Chicago, so during the week we can only text. That is the easiest way to misinterpret true meanings behind some of the things that are said.
I would want it to be while he was up at his apartment, because that is when I don't really get to see his expressions or what he's doing. There probably isn't much going on in his brain that I can't already sense, but there's always something that people don't tell each other. He always tries to make himself seem like he's okay when he's up there, but I think I would learn that he's actually a lot more stressed and lonely then he seems. He would be thinking about the weekend when he gets to come back down and see his family... and me :) I'm sure his thoughts get pretty boring too, because he probably focuses a lot on his school work (audio production), which I wouldn't understand much of, so I'm sure I would get bored with listening to that after a while.
Whenever we text he tells me that he's thinking of me all the time. But what does he really think about me? He probably has a lot of time to think about all the things we have fought about which would make me feel really bad. Like how he hates how I don't take control of anything, or make decisions. Or how I never open up about how I am feeling. Maybe he wonders the same things I do, like what I'm thinking, or what's going on in my head. Although, he could also think about the good times we have, like when we just cuddle all day watching movies in my room cuz we're broke. When we can just laugh at each other and have a good time. It would make me feel good to hear those thoughts, because it would show that he values the good times still. And just that he thinks of me would make me feel happy :)
I'd like to get into Evan's head, to learn what he thinks about during the week when we're not together, hopefully as a reassurance that he does care about... us :)
i like how much thought you put into this haha. it was interesting to read.
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