When looking back on your week, it always seems easier to focus on the bad things than the good. The "Thorns" are usually what dominates (atleast for me) the thought processes. You can make anything seem like a bad thing, it just depends on how it's interpretted.
I can't think of too many "Roses" I've encountered this week. I got to spend the day with my mom yesterday, and we went to the premiering of the very last Twilight movie. Which made for a good day, because she wasn't being all "parenty", it was actually an enjoyable time. Also, my best friend Jimmy was able to call me from where he is at, which really made my day on Tuesday. I don't hear from him much, and that really put a smile on my face.
Throughout the week I always dwell on the "Thorns" that I have to overcome. My boyfriend is up in Chicago all week, so I always miss him. It's also hard sometimes when he's gone, because all we do is text... so there's usually a lot of arguing througout the week. Also, when work gets busy and there isn't many people there to help because it's late always ruins a good mood. It also wasn't a very nice wake up call to look up at my mom, irritated because I slept in. Which really made Yesterday seem almost.. "unreal".
It's harder to focus on the good things, when so many bad things take over your week. It's easy to point out all the things that make you mad, or upset... But when I try to think of the better things, It's not so simple..
11/16/12
11/9/12
Into The Mind of My Boyfriend (Week 11)
If I received the power to read someone's mind. It would Be Evan... My boyfriend. He doesn't really express how he feels or what's on his mind which bugs me sometimes. He could be saying one thing and thinking another, so sometimes I wonder what's really going on up there.
He lives all the way up in Chicago, so during the week we can only text. That is the easiest way to misinterpret true meanings behind some of the things that are said.
I would want it to be while he was up at his apartment, because that is when I don't really get to see his expressions or what he's doing. There probably isn't much going on in his brain that I can't already sense, but there's always something that people don't tell each other. He always tries to make himself seem like he's okay when he's up there, but I think I would learn that he's actually a lot more stressed and lonely then he seems. He would be thinking about the weekend when he gets to come back down and see his family... and me :) I'm sure his thoughts get pretty boring too, because he probably focuses a lot on his school work (audio production), which I wouldn't understand much of, so I'm sure I would get bored with listening to that after a while.
Whenever we text he tells me that he's thinking of me all the time. But what does he really think about me? He probably has a lot of time to think about all the things we have fought about which would make me feel really bad. Like how he hates how I don't take control of anything, or make decisions. Or how I never open up about how I am feeling. Maybe he wonders the same things I do, like what I'm thinking, or what's going on in my head. Although, he could also think about the good times we have, like when we just cuddle all day watching movies in my room cuz we're broke. When we can just laugh at each other and have a good time. It would make me feel good to hear those thoughts, because it would show that he values the good times still. And just that he thinks of me would make me feel happy :)
I'd like to get into Evan's head, to learn what he thinks about during the week when we're not together, hopefully as a reassurance that he does care about... us :)
He lives all the way up in Chicago, so during the week we can only text. That is the easiest way to misinterpret true meanings behind some of the things that are said.
I would want it to be while he was up at his apartment, because that is when I don't really get to see his expressions or what he's doing. There probably isn't much going on in his brain that I can't already sense, but there's always something that people don't tell each other. He always tries to make himself seem like he's okay when he's up there, but I think I would learn that he's actually a lot more stressed and lonely then he seems. He would be thinking about the weekend when he gets to come back down and see his family... and me :) I'm sure his thoughts get pretty boring too, because he probably focuses a lot on his school work (audio production), which I wouldn't understand much of, so I'm sure I would get bored with listening to that after a while.
Whenever we text he tells me that he's thinking of me all the time. But what does he really think about me? He probably has a lot of time to think about all the things we have fought about which would make me feel really bad. Like how he hates how I don't take control of anything, or make decisions. Or how I never open up about how I am feeling. Maybe he wonders the same things I do, like what I'm thinking, or what's going on in my head. Although, he could also think about the good times we have, like when we just cuddle all day watching movies in my room cuz we're broke. When we can just laugh at each other and have a good time. It would make me feel good to hear those thoughts, because it would show that he values the good times still. And just that he thinks of me would make me feel happy :)
I'd like to get into Evan's head, to learn what he thinks about during the week when we're not together, hopefully as a reassurance that he does care about... us :)
11/4/12
Beware of The Ghost of Haley (Week 10)
What would I do if I were a ghost? For starters I would haunt all of the people who I Despised in my past life. I would also bless all of the people who I cared for dearly. I would mostly stay in central Illinois because that's the only place I really know, and where I know the most people.
I would haunt Tim for years and make him go crazy. I would be the scariest ghost he has ever encountered. Every time he turns a corner there will be something lurking in the shadows. He won't know what it is, but it will always be me. It would consist of small harmless torture such as making spooky noises, or stealing small things that belong to him, but have secret significance. (toilet paper, paperwork, car keys, and/or clothing). This would drive him mad because he would have no idea what is happening to all of his stuff. :) I would talk to him in his sleep slowly driving him out of his home and into a small apartment. He would try to call Ghost Hunters, but they would turn him down because of an anonymous bribe (Low Key: It would be money that I took from his bank account) that I would leave to keep them out of his house. He would never discover that I was his awful ghost that follows him everywhere.
Although, I would be a magical ghost that can be many places at once. I would look over my family, friends, and boyfriend. Anytime something seemed bad,I would be there as their reassurance that life was going to be okay. When they fell asleep I would accomplish any tasks that were giving them troubles that day, such as homework or or once again, paperwork. I'd whisper to my parents that I loved them and will always be in their presence, so they would always feel secure. I would steal things that my brothers and best friend, Jimmy(Jimward) wanted and plant it in their bed while they rest. When I am ready to turn in for the night, I would float into bed with my boyfriend where he could always feel my warmth while he sleeps. All the people that I love and care about would always know that I will be there for them if they ever need anything.
I would haunt Tim for years and make him go crazy. I would be the scariest ghost he has ever encountered. Every time he turns a corner there will be something lurking in the shadows. He won't know what it is, but it will always be me. It would consist of small harmless torture such as making spooky noises, or stealing small things that belong to him, but have secret significance. (toilet paper, paperwork, car keys, and/or clothing). This would drive him mad because he would have no idea what is happening to all of his stuff. :) I would talk to him in his sleep slowly driving him out of his home and into a small apartment. He would try to call Ghost Hunters, but they would turn him down because of an anonymous bribe (Low Key: It would be money that I took from his bank account) that I would leave to keep them out of his house. He would never discover that I was his awful ghost that follows him everywhere.
Although, I would be a magical ghost that can be many places at once. I would look over my family, friends, and boyfriend. Anytime something seemed bad,I would be there as their reassurance that life was going to be okay. When they fell asleep I would accomplish any tasks that were giving them troubles that day, such as homework or or once again, paperwork. I'd whisper to my parents that I loved them and will always be in their presence, so they would always feel secure. I would steal things that my brothers and best friend, Jimmy(Jimward) wanted and plant it in their bed while they rest. When I am ready to turn in for the night, I would float into bed with my boyfriend where he could always feel my warmth while he sleeps. All the people that I love and care about would always know that I will be there for them if they ever need anything.
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